The Haves and Have Nots

It's easy to get disheartened when as soon as you get your paycheck it is dissipated between rent, utilities, groceries, and other expenses necessary for simple living. It is also easy to count the things you wish you were able to afford - getting your hair done, pedicures, a dress that is not on the clearance rack.

So I have decided to make a list of all the things that I DO have:

• God
• A wonderful, supporting family
• Justin Moss - my love and motivation
• My friends who provide me with an escape from my troubles
• Fred the Ted <3
• An associates degree, a bachelors degree, and only a small amount of student loans remaining to pay off
• A full-time job
• A home with heating and A/C
• A comfy bed to fall asleep in at night
• INTERNET
• Cable television
• Eden, my acoustic guitar
• A car with under 50K miles on it

So even though there are objects I would like to have, things I would like to do, and places I would like to go - I am very fortunate and blessed, especially in comparison to many other individuals across America/

Throw in the Towel

I don't like pity parties, but today is the exception for one of these types of blogs. It was just an awful day. The kind of day that  makes you wonder if the valley in life you are currently in can get any lower.

I feel..
Ashamed. Hopeless. Exhausted. Disheartened.

I used to be..
Confident. Hopeful. Invigorated. Optimistic.

Please, can that old way of thinking come back? Can I go uphill.. even if it's just for a little while?

I hate being this way. I hate wanting to come home and go to sleep because that is the only time I can free my mind.

Where Do See Yourself in Five Years?

Today I was blessed enough to have the opportunity to go to the Chick-fil-A home office while doing some training.  The best way to describe my experience would to make you think of those Disney commercials where they parents surprise their children about going there on vacation and the kids FLIP out.

I felt just like that. Completely overwhelmed and astounded at the property, building, and atmosphere. I finally got to meet all the staff members who I correspond with on a regular basis via e-mail. I even got to meet Truett Cathy in his beautiful office!

Words can not describe how bad I want to work there.

Now to make my dream a reality.