Transparency

Above  is "Black" by Pearl Jam. It is a black screen because I make crazy faces when I play guitar. Recorded August 5, 2011

Above is "Hazy" by Rosi Golan. Pandora introduced me to it and I fell in love.  Recorded yesterday.

Above is "And Then You" by Greg Laswell. This is such a sweet and emotional song. Sorry for not-so-pretty face of concentration

One of the many definitions of the word "transparent" is - Open to public scrutiny.
I find it necessary to put that definition in this blog because of what I am posting. If any of you are fellow musicians you understand how hard it is to open up and let people hear your music. When you play and/or sing for somebody you are completely vulnerable in that moment.  You are opening up your soul and showing them the depths of your emotions and it is VERY hard to do.  If you have negative comments please keep them to yourselves because, like I said, this is a huge step for me.

Autumn is...

• Cooler weather
• Cardigans
• The fair, and therefore - the Ferris wheel
• Boots
• Cider and cinnamon dolce cappuccino
• Halloween
• College football

I love this season and all that it brings. It is beautiful beyond compare. Autumn evokes such wonderful feelings within me, partially reminiscent and partially wondering what this year will bring. It always goes by so much quicker than summer, which is a shame. 

If my thoughts weren't so jumbled up in my head, I think I could write a song today.  Of course, that is pretty much the case everyday. 

Jen Wood understands.

  [Im still beyond frustrated that no one has tabs/chords for her songs anywhere online]

Random Acts of Kindness

It's been another one of those days when I realize how absolutely magnificent and strange life is.

I went into work hoping for the best, but expecting the worst. Instead of being confronted by difficult customers, I was able to see and interact with truly phenomenal individuals.

There is this one man whose wife recently passed away. It was my first time seeing him since it happened, and it was a heartbreaking experience. He still wears his wedding band. He paid for the meal of a young mother who was in the restaurant with her son, who was around 6 years old, and was handicapped. This mother was so patient and loving to her son, even though I know on a daily basis she is fighting a battle that takes an unimaginable amount of strength. It absolutely touched my heart.

I had another customer pay for the meal of two police officers. It's the second or third time she has done it, and she always insists that I not tell the officers who did it.

In the midst of a world that is falling apart and is inhabited by so many corrupt and mean individuals, there are still those who find joy in simply brightening someone else's day.

Things like that make me realize that no matter what I am going through, whether it be physical anguish or anxiety, that everything is going to be okay.

Brighter Horizons

I am finally feeling better. Still not 100% back to myself, due to antibiotic-induced nausea, but I am getting there. Slowly but surely.

Today was my first day back at school and it went very well. Minus the fact that we covered so much material today and I'm not sure I understand isotopes and radioactivity or whatever that last concept was called. And I still can't figure out electron configurations based on what block an element is in on the periodic table.

I have three papers due for Human Sexuality this Thursday, and two of them are done. The third is open in a word document right now - complete with a heading, an introduction paragraph, and nothing else.

Oh! I have auburn hair now! That's pretty exciting. I had not dyed my hair in just over a year and it was time for a change. I think it's a good look for fall, not to mention it compliments my fair skin quite nicely.

So yeah.. I don't have any deep, thoughtful, or otherwise meaningful things to add today. This served more as a forum for a life update. Sorry, won't let you down next time bloggy-poo.

I've Got Friends in Low Places

So, the past week has pretty much consisted of me being plagued by illness. First, an upper respiratory infection - and as of yesterday, a kidney infection.  "When it rains it pours.."

Needless to say, sitting at home in bed all day is not my cup of tea and has definitely been slightly miserable. It is a beautiful weekend, and the cool weather has made an appearance again.  I want to be outside enjoying it. Alas... I must rest, rest, rest - per the doctors orders, as well as my parents (who I am currently staying with as I get well). 

One good thing that has come of all this is the realization that I could not ask for a better group of friends.  Yesterday when the first pains from my kidney infection hit me, my co-workers were right by my side helping me and doing all they could.  My managers have been BEYOND understanding, especially considering that I have had to miss multiple days of work which I know has not left them in best of situations being short a person.  My best friends have been there for me in every way possible, whether it be taking me to the doctor, taking me to pick up my prescriptions, or just keeping me company while I have been stuck at home (and not judging me for being a complete mess).

Thanks to every single one of you, for being the amazing individuals that you are. I love you all from the bottom of my heart.

Hopefully I will be 100% myself again very soon.

A Sexual Revolution

So, in my Human Sexuality class I have to write a two page paper on what I think the world would be like if we experienced a sexual revolution.


According to Wikipedia, a sexual revolution can be described as, "a social movement that challenged traditional codes of behavior related to sexuality and interpersonal relationships."
And the more I think about it, the more I wonder why the word "if" was interjected into the description of my assignment.
"What would the world be like IF we experienced a sexual revolution?"


If?! As it is now, the harsh reality is that one day when I have children going into high school I will be telling them, "Honey, when I was your age all the kids wore different colored jelly bracelets and each color meant something different."  


The sad thing is, they will probably laugh at me because this will be mild in comparison to whatever is going on in those times.
Oh well, just thought I'd share as I am sitting here brainstorming ideas for my paper.

I'd Rather Be Making Music...

Words can not describe how much I would enjoy playing guitar right now.. but here I am... working on abnormal psychology homework and second-guessing myself a million times on the answer to this one chemistry problem.
And it's the second week in September. Where in heaven's name is the time going?! I want every                 second I can in order to enjoy my time with my friends and family. Instead, it's all being devoted to school.


 Dear Time, Could you PLEASE slow down?


I think I'm drowning my "sorrows" in orange sherbet push pops. Woe is me, and my waistline.